Hey guys! It’s been quite awhile since I last posted, and it’s really nice to be back. Amid all the essays for school and the various academic readings et cetera, writing this is really refreshing.
I want to share a couple of miracles and small things that have been happening throughout this week, but first I want to talk about how bad my week was (oops).
We’ve all had them! We’ve all had those days when nothing is actually going wrong, but you still feel horrible inside and out! So I’m definitely not trying to claim that my case is anything special. It was just… bad. I felt crabby and crusty and I didn’t want to interact with people. The smallest things were getting on my nerves. I even got upset at my brother for comforting me (sorry Squiggly, and thank you for always being there for me even when I totally suck). So yes. I have been in a terrible (and really ungodly) mood lately.
I kept telling myself that this wasn’t right, but I couldn’t help it.
Then Tuesday night, my devotional material was about Samson, in the book of Judges. In summary, Samson had a tragic life. The girl he loved was betrothed to somebody else, everybody hated him, and when he found another girl to love, she sold him out, which resulted in his eyes being gouged out. And then he got killed by pillars which he pulled down himself. Ow.
Although I’ve seen time and time again that the worst way to console somebody is by saying “somebody else has it worse off than you”, I think that’s subjective. I think that is absolutely true if that person is feeling sad over a situation, because situations relate to different people differently; one man’s meat is another man’s poison!
But when you’re being mean and grumpy for no apparent reason, then it’s not your emotions that’s doing all that work. It’s your ego! It was my ego that raised me up above everybody else, that gave me the authority to look down on others, and to be offended by their flaws. Everybody makes mistakes.
What’s important, though, is that I learned that I couldn’t jolt myself out of my own self-pity and general insolence. But God could! I have an over-reliance on myself, when really, God is the only one who can guide us in the right path, right?
Yay!
Another big thing that happened was that the rock climbing expedition in Malaysia, which we’d been training up for over a couple of months, got cancelled. Ordinarily, this wouldn’t “qualify” as a miracle (technically, isn’t everything a miracle?), but you have to hear the details.
It was cancelled because of a forest fire, which was so bad that now the government is looking into it. The fire broke out in the exact location that we would have been during our camp. Think about it! The fire could’ve happened while we were there, and there wouldn’t have been any hope of us surviving.
The cancellation of the expedition also gives me time to do all my work at a comfortable pace, and not get burned out during the holidays. Praise God! It was a great process leading up to the expedition, and even though it never happened, I learned a lot! But that’s a story for another day.
Thank you guys for reading!
God bless!
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